Life.

Life. 

We go about day in and day out living our lives. But are we actually living?

I ask this question because for the last couple weeks I've felt a definite hole in my life. At first I couldn't put my finger on what could possibly be missing. I live a pretty average life; I go to work, I hang out with my friends, I talk to my family on a semi-regular basis, and I spend way too much time on Social Media. So why would a 21 year old girl feel empty?!  

I'm always on the go. 

Plain and simple. Very rarely do you see me sitting on my bum doing nothing any more, and believe me it use to be a regular site. 

When the last time I went to the cinema? The week Gone Girl came out.

When is the last time I sat and home and watched a film? Couldn't tell you.

When is the last time I binge-watched a series on Netflix? No flippin' clue. 

When is the last time I did a photo shoot for fun? August

When did I last write a blog post? 1st of November

When was the last concert I went to? 8th of November

When did I last make a YouTube video? 1 week ago

These are things that I enjoy. These are things that I want to do on a regular basis. These are the things that have been lacking and in turn have made me feel empty.

I work close to 70 hours a week between two jobs. Yes, I know that's ridiculous. Add in the 56 hours that I spend sleeping, 4 hours I spend driving back and forth to work a week, the stops to get food, and the errands I have to run and you'll see that I don't have much time for fun. 

I don't like that. 

I want to have time to do the things I enjoy. When you do the math there are technically 189 hours in a week, take out the time I work (you're left with 119 hrs), the time I sleep (63 hrs), my commute (59 hours), and the estimated time on errands and stops (53). I'm left with 53 hours in a week or if you wanna look at it daily I'm left with 7.571 hours daily. Where does that time go? What am I doing with that time? I can't answer that. I have no idea where that time goes.

So that's my point with this little mini-rant. I have 53 hours during the week that I can fill with those fun activities, I just have to learn how to manage my time correctly.

My mom use to tell me,"If you want something bad enough, you'll find a way." And that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to manage my time more efficiently so I can spend more time with you guys. 

Watch out internet, here I come.